Last time I talked about starting a journey, and an essential part of adventures are challenges which is part of the process of learning and becoming better. As I have gotten more in depth of the internship I’ve encountered different challenges that have made me falter, but as I’ve walked through have left me with a lesson and a new strength. Growth doesn’t happen in the comfort zone, and every hurdle has proven to be a necessary stepping stone in this season of discovery.
This season of my life I’ve tried taking active steps towards facing my multiple fears, not backing down of a task when given the option of not accepting it, even when every instinct tells me to step back. For instance, one of the greatest fears I’m slowly overcoming is speaking in public or leading a moment like a huddle. This months I’ve had to lead some sections of our huddles, and although I’m shivering on the inside, I’m praying to God to strengthen me and make me become capable in Him. It’s been really fun having these introspection moments and see where I was and how God is shaping me in different ways, refining my character one step at a time.
Sometimes I get anxious if I recall it too often, being change one of the things I fear most. Feeling myself change, although positively, has provoked also some anxiety of becoming too different and then not recognizing myself, wondering if I will still feel like me on the other side of these milestones. But then again, is one of those fears that’s loading me and that I must face, encounter, and overcome, and I don’t doubt a truly valuable lesson will I get out of that. Embracing transformation means letting go of who we were to make room for who we are meant to be.
Some of the coolest things I’ve done is being able to design a class for two groups being them School of Rock and Voice Lab, and also leading them alongside with Nate. It has been so awesome to be part of the growth and learning process of other people, watching them find their voice and confidence, and I’m beyond thrilled about the many other ways God might work on my life through these shared creative spaces.
This month I joined a marvelous group of ladies where we are doing a Bible study on the book of Ruth. It has been very valuable to me to be able to be part of another group of women and feel seen and loved by a group of people who genuinely care. Truly, community can be so special, offering a safe harbor where we can share our vulnerabilities and encourage one another.
To close up I’ll just say, learning and growing is not comfortable, it has moved me from my safe spaces, but I pray God can continue to mold me and gives the courage to continue facing those walls I’ve built to protect myself so that I can learn how to be free in Christ and not a prisoner of fear.